love lost. or just soul?

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

reminiscing back on how people feel towards you might somehow make you reflect back on the past. we do truly miss on people whom did make our life meaningful those days. it is impossible to avoid yourself from making mistakes or just having fights. like when we have friends. or loved ones. i try to clarify, at this point where time can change anything. even if you're not changing, the world around you does. there's no point to keep on lamenting about the past when you should planning a step ahead for your future. don't blame yourself for bad things that had happened. it's not about being coward to accept the blame, it's just about moving forward. 

the point that i want to make it clear is that learn to let go. but, as you go along the path of life, don't forget to sometimes look back to remind yourself not to make the same mistake twice. i came across drops of jupiter ; it eventually make me think back. i felt stupid to cry for someone so hard that i forgot to enjoy the sweetness of teenage life. boo me. like when i felt that the world was tumbling down, there's still new things that awaits for me. i'm being grateful that though i had trouble grasping for good, i still have people who supported me. you should stare back and say, hey, i lose you but i don't lose myself. it is a realisation that one too, must grow if she's truly live life.stop being cranky. there's always room to change. life is not all you thought it would be.

so right now, at this moment, i learn to appreciate myself more and respect my feeling. what more is that this is not about high school years that only love that you can only see. it is also about the acceptance of other's differences and how they adapt on it. future is scary. but, can you imagine, or rate your life according to people around you? or how can you tell that you're actually happy or is it just another day that you hold back your grief, smile big and fake your happiness?

And did you finally get the chance
To dance along the light of day?
And did you fall for a shooting star?
Fall for a shooting star?
And now you're lonely looking for yourself out there

"I see that you've done all of these wonderful things, and I'm sure they make you feel like you are more important than everyone else here, but did any of them actually make you happy?"

i don't have that answer.