Morning madness isn’t happen for me lately as i don’t have to rush to classes or hop to another destination for other things. Just blogwalking, listen to morning kuliah;santapan rohani would enlighten my days. Lepastu teringat pasal colleagues, buddies from high schools, cousins and the list goes on. Bila teringat pasal high school-ers ni, i remembered this one chinese guy, happened to be the guy from the other class; next door to mine. At first when we chatted, like usual lah kan. Exchanged greeting and updating about the courses, what’s on the school as well as the hooked ups then. Then then then the topic became the lame one. Couple. Entah kenapa aku memang tak suka bila borak dengan member (ex school-ers esp)cakap pasal couple. The worse is that asking whether you’re single and could he be your bf. Like what? I don’t know you before. It’s only now that you noticed me. Aku takdelah perasan hot ke ape kan. Tapi we never converse like bff in high school, and i didn’t get along with your gossips.
Sometimes i never understand guys. Or i’d rather be don’t. They judge ladies based on their appearances. Bila ok sikit baru nak approach. I can never doubt that you have to look presentable and not selekeh. But presentable here doesn’t mean that we want ourselves to look cheap and approachable. Aku tak tawu lah perempuan lain macam mane kan. But then it really annoys me in the sense that guys rasa bangga (kot) bila jalan dengan awek cun. Kadang-kadang rasa memang nak gelak jek. Taste nak up. Tapi muhasabah diri jugak la der. They want good looking girls, with brain. But they themselves don’t meet that criteria. I don’t insult guys based on their look. I’m looking for better personality. Tak pun bila once they have gf, they want them to look prettier. Macam you dress up this style lah, pakai macam ni lah, get this hairstyle lah, whatsoever. When we love a person, you have to accept for whom your partner is. Don’t condemn them. Don’t control your partner excessively macam takde ruang nak bernafas. She’s your partner. Remember that she’s also another human with feelings too. NOT another dead walking checklist made by you. If that so, it’s better for you to create your own dream girl rather than torture the soft hearted creature like us. Ye lah maybe some will say that eleh perempuan pun sama jek nak laki handsome tapi perangai keji gila. Yang spesies macamni memang sama lah macam korang yang fikir macamtu. But trust me, most of us would definitely prefer the guy with good brain and well mannered. Yang setia bukan yang buaya. Yang sayang kita sebab diri kita bukannya sebab luaran saja.
Tulah.
Semuanya pasal being fussy.
I consider myself as being fussy too. Tapi bukannya fussy sebab rupa ke apa. Sebab perangai je. My dad once said, look for a guy who never leaves his solat and better to be the non-smoker. I don’t ask for them to triple their amalan (if that’s so, better lah), but enough with these two criteria. Itu pun dikira cerewet terok eh? Takpelah. Or i remembered some people said to me, your partner reflects your own personality. Ke aku ni yang tak cukup baik? Perangai buruk ke? But then when i think back, kalau smue macam tu, takde lah kan orang jahat nak jadi baik.
After all, it depends on us. People change too. Cuma kadang-kadang kita perlu tanya diri, kuat ke nak terima semua dugaan. Can our partner accept us for who we are? Bila kita buruk sket ada tak dorang rasa macam nak tinggalkan kita? Hm. Let’s think.
