of dignity and self.

kadang-kadang kita memang perlu mengeraskan hati demi menjaga maruah diri.

                                                                                                 -diana,2010-

if you were women, would you trade your dignity for something that is not worth sacrificed for? sometimes i just ponder why it happens. dignity is something precious. let's say in a situation; you don't want to attend any concert, but someone urge you to do so. and he is the one that you loved most. would you do it to satisfy his desire and ignore yours? or would you just be firm on your stand? looking back the years that i've been through, it's not that bad to sometimes be selfish. headstrong could be other reasons. call me freak. call me weirdo. i embrace it. it's hard to explain why i restrict certain things. i assume that people don't understand me.or they pretend not to. i am constantly reminded by  my parents on how i should behave. guilty sometimes surrounding me when i did something that's waayyy out of control. but deep down inside, i know that there's something that i should stand for. sorry if i am being so harsh. i have reasons for that.

sorry if i'm being ignorant.

sorry if my words hurt you.

sorry if i refuse to join you.

sorry if my firm stand doesn't suit you.

of all many things that evolve around, i thank god for granting me bittersweet family, friends who go up and down the hills together and people who care about me. thanks for knowing how i function and cheer me when i'm blue. i shall never regret you and believe me, even if i raise my voice, even if i pause my words for such a long time, i still love you guys. and thank you for the advice.