now i can see the relation between action and its consequences in behaviorism theory. i can apply that to my current condition right now. the fact that the association of hotel environment is always with pressure and sadness. going to work equal to sadness. bear that it's not the part where i'm being ungrateful. perhaps it's the part where one tries to fit into new environment. it's been awhile since september and i don't feel like i'm enjoying it. it's like the timing went wrong. maybe it's a rush. i don't know if it's a part of His plan for me.
what makes it look like a ball of untangled mess:
i've got exam which falls on friday, the day that i supposed to work. i've got future travel plan which falls on early november, which the supervisor doesn't seem to like that. the result = being scolded. or else being bombarded by cynicism. like a lot. saying that i demanded for leave a lot. it's like my plan before i get this job. now i'm left guilty all the time. bad days. like always.
the part where we share the problems weren't like what we feel.
saya hanya mahu menjadi hambaMu yang bersyukur...
dunia je semua ni...
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bila sedih selalu end up tidur. before that had jokes with friends. but that didn't help. dear God, i beg you please show me the way...
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