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keep on laughing

and watch me fall

puas hati kan

kan

kan

kan

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chicken soup for soul 2

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

maintaining relationship can be said as harder than it seems to be. family, friends, loved one. i dare to say that not all of all are determined to do so. even with parents pun, you still have to deal with many things. considerations made sometimes may hurt other people.i know it's hard to satisfy people. even for me, the need to avoid any rivalry or jealousy sometimes take me to fall into tears. i might look okay and laugh like there's nothing else to worry in this world. trust me; you wouldn't want to know what is kept deep down inside.

like i said in my previous entry, when it comes to relationship, and when it reaches one year, my heart starts to tremble in fear. the fear of rejection. fear of breaking up. fear of being left alone. everything. i somehow admit that my words are harsh. sorry friends. sorry people. but i just couldn't let it crumpled in my head. for whatever reason i am saying, it seems that people misunderstand what i try to tell them, sometimes. i just don't want this to end. i am trying to accept imperfection that people possess. i know i'm not perfect too. but we can put effort to make it better right? 

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

Sorry.

& thank you for being a part of my life, whether you are a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Please don't walk away.

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chicken soup for soul

You don't have to be your mother unless she is who you want to be. you don't have to be your mother's mother, or your mother's mother's mother, or even your grandmother's mother on your father's side.

You may inherit their chins or their hips or their eyes, but your are not destined to become the women who came before you.

You are not destined to live their lives. so, if you inherit something, inherit their strength, their resilience. because the only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.

                                                                                    - Pam Finger -

a good motivation though. don't let people change you coz you can just change for yourself. inherit the strength because it is the cruel world you have to face. 

i am nervous when it comes to one year relationship. and up until now i still find my way to sooth myself and not to be trapped in my own speculations. a kind of traumatic experience. please just let it lasts.

september wishes

happy birthday uda, noraisah arjuna

&& happy birthday sweetheart; u know who you are 

to uda,

happy 16th birthday

may you be blessed always

study smart;

read a lot ;but not soo bookworm-ish; or else u'll be another social outcast.kehkeh

be a good sister (who'll always look for sisters)

take effort really hard for eternal happiness and hereafter.

love you guys

xoxo.

no photos for this entry due to the wifi speed. eh no. speed is likely to be like fast. i consider this one as s-l-o-w. plus, they don't like publicity. ceyh. haha

poker face

i seriously don't give a damn on what you think of me

sorryla if rase xsenang

just say it straight to my face

sorry okeyh

mintak maaf banyak3

you can have it all

i mean it

sorry.

fullstop.