Don't take someone's silence as her pride, she might be busy fighting with herself - Ali bin Abi Thalib

post jet lag

slm alayk,

hovering over experiences of riding over planes, nothing beats the feeling of coming back home. alhamdulillah Allah ease everything. turned out feeling good when seeing familiar faces. all you have to do is straighten your niat. of coming back home for good. i remembered one experience happened to be at auckland international airport. when your handsocks and spectacles were tossed out into a dustbin. with the assumption from the cleaner that it was a rubbish with no claim from any flight passenger. well you could expect how frusfrated i were.it was the favourite dark brown handsock that i happened to save for any special event. turned out to be tossed into the bin. uhm. yeah. well. it happened. sad case. it is even sadder to know that i mourn over a small loss as compared to the palestinians. to fight over personal temptations and not the soul lost. reflecting on gaza people, i should be ashamed for that they fight for lives and not over trifles. you could not be more grateful than knowing that you are not in a qittal jihad (physical struggle).

a transition of time and place.
just like the change of season.

for Gaza. may you are granted syahid.
victory or syahid.


and for now.
i have to resist the rebellions in myself when i see the reality at my homeland. crappy dramas and never ending singing competition. oh did i mention the neglected ikhtilat and the western wannabe through clothes department in shopping complex? the reason why i prefer to stay at home few days before going out. you know, mental adjustments. now stop the rebel in your chest like you feel you want to explode.

welcoming homeland culture.
mehnah for sure.

to ponder

to not to feel superior

when seeing other's flaws

mungkin orang kata

kebaikan sentiasa berada di sisimu

kalam terucap rendah

walhal diri mendabik tinggi

ingat

jangan pernah lupa

lemahmu terhijab dengan hemah

aibmu tersimpan di balik resah

Rabbmu 

Dia melindung segala sesuatu

ingat

pesanku pada diri yang pilu

T_T

wida'

assalamualaikum wbt

Ketika masuk tahun baru, bukan persoalan doa itu yang utama. Diri kita tu, jiwa kita tu, masih yang lama ke atau sudah bertukar yang baru? 

Kalau masih dengan jiwa yang lama, sikap yang lama (yang tidak baik), awak bacalah doa apapun, ya akhi, tak ada maknanya. 

Perubahan itu dari dalam ke luar, akhi. Bukan dari luar ke dalam.
Kalau nta sibuk doa saja, tapi usahanya tak ke mana, jiwa nta pun jiwa yang usang, tak usaha dibaiki, tak ada apa juga, ya akhi.

              (afdholul rahman) 

wida'
for the ambience
for this cold breeze
for the hilly roads and steep pavements
for the stair that keeps you gasping for more
for the lectures that's more or less keep you in conscious
for the tictacs that heals your nausea
for the akhawats that keeps you company
for the soul retreats that keeps your head up
for the ups and downs that keeps your heart strong

a wida' to a place once known as my turning point of life 
a wida' to immaturedness and moving on to reality.

a whole new door to opportunity and mihnah along this life journey

salam maal hijrah.

may Allah forgive our sins in the past.

may the new journey starts with new soul.

may the path that we will pave leads to the pleasure of Allah

NZ bits & pieces

the last bits

dalam masa 2 tahun,
cara pandang terhadap sesuatu isu mula berubah,
terutama bila bandingkan diri sekarang dengan diri 5 tahun lepas,
dan tak mustahil perspektif dan pemikiran akan berubah lagi mengikut masa.
pengalaman, mengajar erti kematangan.

-ukhti mazidah hasanah-


By the age of 20 you should be wise enough to choose ur wording in public, so as to prevent urself from being a joke, a disappointment, a lunatic and apart of slander. This is not hypocrisy, but dignity.

-ukhti khalilah-


slowly accepting life as it is. digesting on what is going on. reflecting on what had been done. moving forward to final year TESOL student. embracing self on expectations & reality.

a countdown of leaving a meaningful place to me. carving every inch of the moment before it's too late.
the middle of the middle earth.
who could expect to be like this?
gloomy days towards 20nov.

Di dalam hati ada sebuah kesedihan yg tidak akan mampu diseka kecuali oleh kebahagiaan yg tumbuh kerana mengenal Allah dan ketulusan berinteraksi denganYa.
Pun di dalam hati terdapat sebuah kegelisahan yg tidak mampu ditenangkan kecuali dengan berhumpun kerana Allah dan pergi meninggalkan kegelisahan itu menuju Allah. 
Ada gejolak api yg tidak mampu dipadamkan kecuali oleh keredhaan akan perintah, larangan dan keputusan Allah yg diiringi dengan ketabahan dan kesabaran sampai tiba saat perjumpaan denganNya.

ibadah sepenuh hati.


-via sis j fb-



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yosh! assignment!